I'm 23 years old, with a Bachelor and Master of Social Work degree, full time job as a Social Worker getting paid enough to pay my bills and then some, a brand that has successfully launched two shows reaching over 200 people and engaging over a dozen different artists, a licensed Minister building my ministry outside of the four walls, and yet, I hear the deceiving voice of "not enough". Yet, I feel the tug of inadequacy and the desire to "do" and "achieve" more. As you can see from the things I named above, I have done plenty, especially for someone my age. So, you might be saying, "what in the world are you talking about?"
I'm talking about that voice that lives inside my head, and probably some of yours reading this, always trying to rob me of the opportunity to live in the present and acknowledge the accomplishments to date. "So what if you got your Masters at 22? Do you have your social work license?" "Okay you've been out of school for almost a year. It's time to go back." "When are you going to turn your brand into a company?" "What's next Felicia? What's next?"
What's next is always the question in my mind. It in itself is not a bad one either; we should be thinking ahead of how we can grow and become skilled in our gifts. BUT. It is a dangerous one when it is not coupled with the acknowledgement of what's achieved. Before you think of what's next, you should look where you've come from. The journey has not been easy by any means, and I don't have to know your story to know that. When I think of the last five years of my life alone, I can bust out into tears at the grace and strength that God has given me to make it this far. I literally could have quit! It would have made sense! Some people in similar situations as mine did! Yet, there are times where I bypass that realization and force myself to think of the next accomplishment. (It's also an issue of pride, but that's another convo).
SLOW DOWN. When is the last time you gave yourself a pat on the back? When is the last time you looked around at what you accomplished and was satisfied/proud? When is the last time you took the time to thank God for even bringing you as far as you are? James 4:14-15 (NLT) says "How do you know what your life will be like tomorrow? Your life is like the morning fog—it’s here a little while, then it’s gone. What you ought to say is, 'If the Lord wants us to, we will live and do this or that.' " Ecclesiastes 3:13 (NLT) says "And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God." At the end of the day, the point is we have no clue what the future will hold, and not just five years from now, but next 60 seconds. God has gifted us with time, and graced us to accomplish things within it. Acknowledge that. And thank Him for it. Instead of asking what's next, see what's NOW.
Until next time,